So yeah, remember when I said that Bikram yoga quieted my mind?
Well, today it didn't. I don't know if it was the big fat burger my dad made me eat, or the fact that I was at a funeral earlier in the day, or that the Captain and I are talking again or maybe even that the room wasn't hot enough (ok, now that's just crazy talk). But my mind was all over the damn place. I still felt great and I am really starting to see improvements in the postures. Yippy for that.
Being at the funeral (only the 2nd in my life) really made me think about weird stuff. I have been sooooo blessed to have only lost one grandfather at this point. The funeral today was the mother of a very good friend of mine. I practically grew up at their dining room table. Her mom was like my 2nd mom, especially when my parents got a divorce and my mom was a single parent. Seeing my best friend there, now without BOTH of her parents, just made me realize how important family and true friends are. There is so much to handle at a time like this and thank God she has such a huge support system. Her mom was such an amazing woman and I was definitely blessed to have her in my life.
It made me think, do I have a support system like that? Do I have people in my life that would stop everything and sit day and night in the hospital with me? Who would step up and do all the things that need to get done?
What's more important to me is - Am I the kind of friend that would do that for others? I would like to hope I am. I only visited this lady ONCE in the hospital. Once. That is shitty of me. I get so bogged down in my routine that I alienate myself, even from my family. This is something I really want to work on.
I have been working on the "outside" of my body for so long.
It is time to start to bring the focus inward.
Song of the day: You Wouldn't Like Me by Tegan & Sara