Running on Anxiety

Self-Sabotaging or Anxiety?

You tell me.

Remember when I used to wake up before work and run? Well I did.

I have been trying my best to get back into that cycle (although with my travel schedule it's been a challenge). But when I'm home, I PLAN on waking up early to run. Here is the routine:

• I drink lots of water, eat healthy dinner and go bed early
• I lay in bed and think of stupid things
• I start to worry that I won't fall asleep
• I don't fall asleep so I start to worry more about not getting enough rest
• Then I worry that I'm worrying and causing this whole thing (I must be crazy)
• My heart starts beating fast and I don't fall asleep
• I stare at the clock until 2am
• I drift off and have a nightmare
• Nightmare wakes me up at 3:30 am
• I lean over and turn off my alarm because there is no way of waking up to run in 2 hrs

This is not a rare occurrence. Neither is the nightmare thing, but that's a blog for another day.

Hence the reason I'm only running on the weekends. I don't stress about what time I fall asleep and I don't stress about when I need to wake up.

I really don't know what to do about it.

If The Dress Zips, Wear It

I did it!!!

I dieted

and sweated

and starved

and ran

my way into the dress.

The proof my friends>>>>>>>

Yes, it was snug especially in certain areas, but it fit. You can see actually that the straps are loose. I would have had to get it altered if I got the size up.

So anywhooooo, please don't do what I did.

Let this be a lesson to you all.