Bittersweet Changes

I've been holding back some big news...

I am moving.

Not only am I moving, but I'm buying my own condo!

I have been planning this and thinking about it for the past few years. Of course I always thought I would be taking this step with a fiance, but that's another Oprah.

To be honest with ya'll, I am totally and completely freaking out. It's a ginormous change for me on so many levels, I can't even explain. But I'll try with a nice pro/con list :)

PROS:

1. Good financial investment


2. Tax benefits


3. Bigger place


4. No mold, leaking pipes, running toilet, creepy landlord or loud upstairs neighbor


5. Closer to yoga studio


6. Away from ex-boyfriend (whom I can't seem to get over)


7. It will force me to reconnect with other friends or even meet new ones


8. Exciting to decorate my own place - I've become obsessed with decorating websites


9. More space!!! 2 bedrooms and lots of closet space


10. A big kitchen


11. A washer and dryer - hello, I have not had one in 10 years!!!


12. Dinner parties!

CONS:

1. I will not be living across from the beach (I've been here 10 years)


2. I will have to drive to my favorite runs - I've been very spoiled.


3. Moving away from friends


4. Away from ex-boyfriend (whom I can't seem to get over)


5. The entire process of buying a home - shoot me now!

I guess the lists were a lot longer in my head. This entire process is completely stressful and annoying. I am supposed to close escrow March 30th. I hope so because I gave notice at my apartment to be out by April 15. It just seems that every little freakin' step takes a week to get done. There are A LOT of incompetent people out there.

I've been on an emotional roller coaster and it's taking a major toll on my body. I am always tired. Always. Exercise seems to only happen on the weekends because I can't get up early or stay up late to do it. I know it would help, but I just can't wake up in the morning - no matter what time I go to bed. If this continues after I move in, I will go to the doctor and make sure it's nothing serious. Oh wait - no I won't because I won't have insurance. Something else I am still stressed about.

I haven't stepped on a scale in a very long time. I don't want to face it yet. Some of my clothes are getting tighter - my casual jeans don't even button. I'll deal with all of this when I can. I am hoping I will get moved in, decorate my place, figure out my fall marathon, get back on track with training, meet a new man, have fun dinner parties, fall in love and live happily ever after. I don't think that's too much to ask for in a year. Do you? JUST PUTTING IT OUT THERE!

STREEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Amy asked in her blog what you do to deal with stress. This tends to be the season for stress. I don't know what it is -families, money, work, New Years goals... whatever it is, a lot of people seem to get the blues.

Some people do weird things to cope. When I was a kid, I would bang my head against the wall and blame it on my imaginary friend Ta Da. As a teenager, I would punch holes in my wall (I was a really pleasant teenager). College age, I drank and smoked.

Since I love food so much, I automatically assumed that I would eat like a big fat cow when stress really hit. Well, this weekend I tested that theory (unintentionally).



I had an emotional weekend and I learned that I DON'T EAT when I'm stressed. And if I can stomach anything, I usually end up throwing it up. I never knew this about myself or maybe I haven't been this emotional in a long time. Even weirder still is that I went to the market and bought a ton of food, but didn't eat it. The good part is that I dropped 4 lbs! I know it will probably come back - but I'm at 140 right now. Only 5 lbs away from my goal!

But the best way to deal with stress is to run. It clears your mind and makes your body feel great. So, that's what I did...

I ran.
I ran Saturday 3.5 miles and Sunday 4.2 miles
WITH NO PAIN!!!!

The runner girl is back! So the question is... will I be able to get up to speed to do a half marathon in 6 weeks??
I think I can. Strike that.
I know I can.

Song of the Day: Mama Said Knock You Out by L.L Cool J