Craziness Abounds

So I had a rough weekend, but I'm trying to focus on the good stuff.

First 20 mile run is checked off the list.
20 miles = 2:59
I felt decent - wasn't happy with the time though. I think it's about 8:59 min miles. I was having some breathing problems due to a lovely anxiety attack I had the night before - but we're focusing on the positive. So that other shit won't be discussed.

I got a pedicure (Thanks loadmaster). Pedicures are things that will have to be cut from the budget as there will soon be no budget. But this was a treat.

Went to Bikram finally! I was glad when it was over - we'll just go with that.

Oh, and I finally laid out on the beach. My first beach trip this summer (at home I mean).
So yeah, that was good, too.

Yep, that's about all I can come up with. I can't wait to get out of town - leaving Wednesday. Maybe I'll never come back.

(Drama not being mentioned in this post: sunburn, tears, money, job, drama, stress, anger, drama, hot water heaters, friends, drama, gossip, etc.)

Beating Yourself Up

Fellow Morning Person: How was your run this morning?

Me: Good, but slower than I should have been.

FMP: Well, no matter how fast you run, you'll never beat yourself.

Hmmm. Ok weirdo. But then I thought about what this guy said. Obviously he doesn't know me at all, but I really do always try to beat myself. To take it step further, I never think I'm good enough. I never run fast enough, far enough or enough days of the week. This also stretches into other aspects of my life.

Well ENOUGH of that. It ends now.

No more negative thoughts in my head.

I'm done thinking I'm not good enough.

I'm done beating myself up over small details.

So here are my awesome numbers for this morning, because I totally kick ass.

Mile 1: 9:18
Mile 2: 9:40

Mile 3: 9:55

Mile 4: 9:49

Song of the Day: Sometime Around Midnight by The Airbourne Toxic Event